super duper down

I am wonder what happened to me for today
wake up in the morning, dont have any mood to do anythings
even i meet ks and andy also dont have mood to say hi to them

night time got celebration for my friends
should be happy
but no choice have class at night, before i already skip 3 times
cant skip anymore, so i have to attend
so because of the class, i cant go the celebration

Another things is no matter how i treat them to be nice, respect them..
but they still maintain their attitude..
Is it my fault? Is it i really not good at all? I already try my best to be nice with u all
but the end still like this.

I afraid i cant do well in everything
I saw they keep growing but i still remain the same
Although i keep telling myself that i am ok. everything will be ok
but i cant control my mind to think
almost to give up
Everyone come back from event should be happy and got a lots of dream
i think i am the one except from them
i am happy but the happiness is act on my face
not from heart


I got a lots of things want find people to share but who?
That why i dont know what happened to me for today? Today i feel very sad.. my mood is very very down...

PC fair 感触～

3天pc fair 终于结束了~

第一天报道：

为什么那里的人除了ccx， 马来人，还有一个带眼镜的其他人都很超级不友善

我也不知道是不是我得罪他们，还是我的人就看起来不顺眼，所以都没有跟我说话

再来就是从早到晚还是一直拿鸡蛋，超丢脸，虽然他们说没关系，可是心里一直很介意

这一天就这样不停地犯错过去了~

第二天：

还是一样不敢吃，不敢喝，不敢做，不敢走，不敢上厕所，不敢离开booth一步

就是希望可以破蛋，希望可以卖到一台，希望可以到达我的要求

至少不丢脸嘛~大家都叫我去吃，可是因为还没有卖到，所以不想吃~

就这样过了伤心，气馁，丢拉的心态过了一天~

最后一天：

带着有就有，没有就没有的心态~

也一样没有吃午餐，想上厕所也不敢

终于等了好久，卖到我的第一架

那种兴奋真的很难形容，我的手是冷的，是抖的

太开心了

大家都很我说：你终于可以去吃饭了！

可是我现在是开心到不想吃

再来一架也卖了~

开心得到体验，开心不会丢脸，开心认识到一些朋友~

只能说即好玩，即刺激，即担心~

还好我有破蛋- 这是重点！！！哈哈哈哈哈哈！！！